Ola! Thanks for visiting my space. (Erm, my page)
When I tell people that I’m a visual artist and a freelance writer, they usually ask me for an online portfolio. I always fail to deliver. I find myself endlessly searching through a bottomless pit (cause I never delete) of ancient emails just to resurrect photos of paintings, articles, and write-ups I’ve done in the past. Ain’t no easy task.
I was tired of making excuses for myself. I needed an outlet where I can share things, and inspire and motivate other people. Lord knows I also needed to motivate myself. To give life to my work, and not just let them sit on a piece of paper, dusting away in some corner of the house. In deciding to take the plunge, I took out my wallet, bought and registered a domain, and worked on this thing.
So – why ‘The Space Between’?
I forget a lot of things, and outgrow a lot of feelings (as we all do). I’m also a very sentimental person *cringe, but yes*, and I think my love for the written word and visual art sprung from the desire to express myself and remind myself of seemingly unimportant things that pass before our eyes everyday. A few years ago I saw this quote by Tracee Ellis Ross, and felt that I encountered it at such a pivotal time in my life – aka the early 20s – where anxiety always gets in the way of accomplishing things.
Rather than letting the great waves scare me, it reminds me to dive into the water and allow the current to teach me things and show me the vastness of the ocean. We often get so terrified of the unknown, and I won’t lie, I still am. I don’t think the fear will ever go away when you’re in pursuit of a path that you need to carve out for yourself.
But, but. The thing is – there’s no point in worrying, because it’s not going to flip things over. The world doesn’t wait on anyone, and certainly not on worriers. The most we could do is to take things day by day, work and persevere, and learn as much as we can with the time and resources given to us. As I’ve told myself time and again, we must learn to trust the process. Process knows itself. It’s honest, and takes no shortcut to beauty.
A false concept such as perfection is crippling. We need to remind ourselves that the notion of perfection was constructed in the mind of man, who himself is flawed to begin with. It does not exist, as what may be perfect for you may not be perfect for another. It’s funny how cliches always seem to be true, and how often we come across them but not perceive the truth in them.
I created this blog as a symbol of the space in between where I am and where I want to be. As I create, I’m sure that this space will continue to take on various forms and grow, expand, contract, and take a life of its own, every single day. Still, that’s okay, because the natural process of things that are alive is to constantly change.
So, I’ll stop with my excessive talking now. Welcome to my page, and I hope you read along!